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Guilt

Posted in Operation Shock and Awe, Parenting on June 28, 2009 by Brad

The second kiddo’s imminent arrival is a mere three months away. We are in the process of clearing out the study so that we can move Lamia in there and leave the smaller, closer room for the n00b.

I find I am feeling a little guilty at the uprooting that Lamia is going to go through. She has been so much the center, the focus, of our lives for the past 21 months. She comes before all else, and she knows it. The kid chucks a tantrum if she brings me a book to read to her and I tell her I will do it in 2 minutes. How on earth is this little girl, who has been so doted on, going to handle being second fiddle to a tiny baby? The baby who has uprooted her from her bedroom, will be wearing her old socks and playing with her old toys. The baby who is going to bring Lamia’s out-of-house activities to a screaming halt for awhile.

I cannot help but regret them being so close in age. It was not something we planned that way. When it comes to unplanned pregnancy, we rule. But I wish Lamia was just a little older so she would be able to understand what was going on. So that she would be excited about being a big sister, and about having a whole new room, her own little space which will actually fit some of her toys. And maybe we could paint it the color of her choice.

Of course, then I feel guilty for focusing on Lamia and barely even considering the n00b, and it occurs to me how kids end up with middle child syndrome…

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Remember that thing I said that time?

Posted in Adoption, Operation Shock and Awe, Parenting on March 19, 2009 by Brad

About how there were momentous events in my life of which two years sobriety was the least? Well now I can talk about the other one.

We are having a baby

Lamia gets to be a big sister!

Let’s not talk about my below average photography skills.

In other news, we are in the process of making a date to visit with Sprog’s family. We figure best get it done before we have a new baby, else it will never happen.

Last man standing

Posted in Addiction, Music, Operation Shock and Awe on January 23, 2008 by Brad

Sunday will mark one year of sobriety. Just a few weeks ago I was marveling at how easy I was finding it. But now, my fingers are itching, and there is nothing I want more than to get wasted. Funny how this seems to happen right when you come close to a milestone. I have a secret weapon this time though, and one smile from her could avert a nuclear war.

She is four months old now. Her hobbies include: jamming an entire fist in her mouth, indiscriminate kicking, high pitched squeals and giggling.

And now for something completely different.

Why do I like this song? This band looks and sounds like an obsidian-clad Abba after a few days of heavy drinking.

I almost pissed myself when they started doing the synchronized guitar-thrust. Oh, and the last few notes sound suspiciously like Metallica’s “The Unforgiven”.

Truly, madly, deeply

Posted in Operation Shock and Awe on December 20, 2007 by Brad

I am absolutely, irretrievably in love. My daughter is the most beautiful creature to ever lay helplessly on the face of this earth.

I am also so tired that I forgot to take my glasses off before I got in the shower and did not realize until the steam misted over the lenses and I was unable to see.

It’s a baby!

Posted in Music, Operation Shock and Awe on October 11, 2007 by Brad

I have a daughter. She was unceremoniously ripped from my wife’s body by emergency c-section on September 17th, and she looked pretty pissed about it. She weighed in at 7lb 13oz and was 20 inches in length. Judging by the health of her lungs and the dramatic trembling of her lower lip, she will be a formidable opera singer. But a damn pretty one.

Proud daddy.

As a special note, I would like to thank INXS from the bottom of my heart for writing this song, which seems to be some kind of magic lullaby.

Sex

Posted in Operation Shock and Awe on September 12, 2007 by Brad

… does not induce labor. But try it anyways.

This has been a public service announcement.

Panic! In the nursery

Posted in Adoption, Operation Shock and Awe on July 16, 2007 by Brad

OK, so far there is no nursery. We have 8 weeks until the due date. Hence the panic. I have to sort through an entire room of junk which for some reason holds sentimental value to me, despite it being things like 2400 baud modems, my favorite t-shirt from when I was 17, and a broken waffle maker. We are still waiting on the crib to arrive, we have no bedding and no newborn underwear, and I am waiting until the last moment to get the car seat fitted because… uh… because…. ah, because I will need to put the back seat down to fit the crib in there when it finally arrives at the store.

In other news, I got a fathers day card this year, hand created and signed by Sprog. I feel a little guilty because of our lack of visitation this year. They talked of coming to see us after the baby is born, but I am not sure how I feel about that. Kind of like this time is just for the three of us. I suspect even my wife is going to have a hard time prying this baby out of my hands this time.